Psalms 18:6 In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice from his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
Theoretically most people become gloomy during rainy days, maybe even tired, or some people just crawl into bed and go to sleep. For me personally, rainy days always spur deep thinking. They bring back a time and place in my life where I once had everything a man could ever dream of. Once upon a time, as they say in fairy tales, I had an accomplished life both professionally and personally by my early 20s. I had achieved something none of my teachers from high school (which I dropped out of) said would ever be possible for a guy like me. I had overcome things in my teenage years that most people just hear about in the movies. I had achieved the white picket fence life of dreams having had two beautiful children, and a beautiful, amazing woman to call my wife.
Rainy days remind me of her because she always told me rainy days made her the happiest. My kids loved for me to be right beside them when the rain came. Of course, I was their protector from the loud thunder outside. Now every time there’s a rainy day the old saying, “You don’t know what you’ve got, until you lose it.” comes to mind.

Psalms 51:12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
Resilient seems to be a middle name of mine that I picked up along the way. I had the unique ability to take any good things in my life and make them all disappear overnight. I grew accustomed to others calling me the comeback kid. The problem is, why would anyone continue to ruin everything good in their lives intentionally? The next issue was, that after the repeated pattern I was displaying, why would I not analyze the reasons for continuing to commit such atrocities in my own life? I mean seriously, who could knowingly inflict such kinds of pain on their loved ones, their kids, and families without care or concern for the potential consequences for each action ? My life did not make sense. How could someone gain the whole world yet lose his own soul? I was somehow disconnected from the emotions of what I was doing, and who I was hurting. It seems I was incapable of receiving love, and certainly of giving it, too. If you spent long enough around me soon enough I would begin pushing you away. I’m not sure If I ever consciously planned this, but sure enough time after time I pushed my loved ones away.

Psalms 55:5 Fear and trembling have come upon me; horror and fright have overwhelmed me.
The Bible says that God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and a man became a living soul(Genesis 2:7). My idea of how this scripture came into reality for my own life is not factual. In fact there is not one shred of physical proof that I can offer you regarding what I am about to say. In the midst of my darkness, a day came when I knew that I had been touched by God himself. For the first time, I knew that I had a soul, that I was conscious of the very existence of God, and my spirit yearned to know him more. I did not just accept the idea of Jesus. I knew he was real.
Breath of life, and a man became a living soul. God’s chosen people. I believe that somehow God chose me to be saved. I believe that he allowed me to hit a rock bottom that was so rough and so full of pain that it would take the Creator of heaven and earth Himself to literally breathe life into me. I had desired to be a better person my entire life. I had desperately wanted with all my flesh to be someone different, yet time after time I continued to stand up to fall down just to stand back up to fall back down.

Romans 8:11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by His Spirit that dwells in you.

I will leave you with this thought I have asked myself more times than I can remember lately. Why do some people get it? Then why do some people act like it is just a good idea? Grace. Jesus Christ is the way the truth and the light.

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-Branson James