“Like a fish out of “Water”. Have you ever been there?
With pain so deep that something has got to be wrong with you to be feeling the way that you feel. Why doesn’t anyone else feel this way? Am I alone? I had this picture of a fish flopping out of water in the sand on the beach, flopping dying to get back to the water. Just stuck right there with no hope. This is a visual of how I pictured my life. People just walking by playing with their families on the beach, running around with their families just pretending that I was not there and my problems did not exist. There I was a fish flopping around out of “water” just feet away from what I needed to survive, but not only survive yet thrive and be happy the “Water” is what I was created to exist in. The “Breath Of Life” was right there in the “Water” just feet away. Yet the distance between me and the “Water” was an impossible journey. I did not possess what I needed in order to get back to the “Water”. Hopeless and without understanding of how I could have gotten to the place where I was. Destined to be lost without any direction as to how to turn around this unmanageable chaos of a life. I had continued to return to the same old fight, time after time and each time expecting different results. Something had to change, something was about to give. I was that something. I realized that nobody was going to change until I changed. I was the only missing catalyst to the change I desired. I was my problem. I wasn’t a fish out of water. I was a child of God living out of the Kingdom, I was a citizen of Heaven not living up to my citizenship. My Freedom already had been paid for yet I was willingly living in slavery.
My journey back to the “Water” required that I left all that I knew and had grown familiar with. I had to abandon every bridge back to the old me. No going back I was home, back in the “Water”.
John 4:14 But whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
Ezekiel 36:25 I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleanness, and from all your idols I will cleanse you.
John 7:38 Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’”
Isaiah 44:3 For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour my Spirit upon your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants.
Revelation 22:1 Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb
Lord, I praise your name that I am not that old me. That all things have become new, Lord please take this day and take control of my brokenness and my failure. Allow for what was and what is to be guided in your perfect will. Father I ask that you take my anxieties and fears, and surround me with your arms to keep me comfort in the storm. Father today I feel weak yet in my imperfection you are perfect. Lord grant me the grace to Love others where I have not been loved, empower me with the endurance of your Son to fulfill my faithful duty in this journey. That one day my children make look upon me and be proud to say “that man is my dad”, “that man is a good man”. I know you are in control at the very moment that I am out of control. Thank you for your peace thank you for my place in the Kingdom. Thank you that you will never leave or forsake me. Praise your name above all names. – Amen
~ Brandon Lien