Elizabeth recently graduated the Freedom Dream Center 1 year life recovery program and has made tremendous progress squarely facing her problems and has become an entirely brand new person. We wanted to share her testimony with you, and we also just mailed it out to 412 prisoners in January’s prison letter. Enjoy.
Hi my name is Elizabeth, I am 33 years old and I have 3 other sisters and a brother, of which I am the oldest. We are all from Aurora, Mo. I want you to know how much Jesus loves you. I also know that if you are truly seeking God and asking Him for a way out, no matter the circumstance, Jesus is faithful and will do exceedingly and abundantly above all you can ask or think. (Ephesians 3:20) He knows your heart and your efforts. He hears your prayers and he feels your pain. He loves you dearly and wants to do even greater things in your life than he’s done in mine. I come from a family of drug addiction. My mom is an alcoholic/drug addict and my dad stayed constantly and consistently in and out of my life. I was a built in mom and baby sitter. By the age of 12, I was smoking cigarettes, by the age of 13+14 I was having sex and drinking vodka on a regular basis, by the age of 15 I was introduced to methamphetamines. At the age of 16 I married a 40 year old man, quit school, moved out on my own, hung around meth cooks, became one, and the over the next 16 years my life spun out of control. 11 years of that I spent with a very abusive man. He started out calling me names, and pushing me around but before I knew it I had black eyes and missing teeth. I spent a lot of time justifying and thinking it was “love” because there were still good times in between incarcerations. Both of us spent numerous time in and out of jail and prison. I thought we would have the kind of relationship I imagined in my mind but it never happened. Things just got worse and worse, until there were no more “good” moments left. At this point I knew he was never going to change, and I desperately wanted out and was willing to do anything. Everything seemed hopeless. I was sitting on the bed in a motel room in Dunwig, MO contemplating over and over what I was going to do, and how I was going to get out of the mess I was in. How was my life ever going to be any different? I had burned every bridge, I had no friends, nowhere to go, and I knew if I stayed with this guy any longer one of us was going to die or I would spend the rest of my life in prison. As I was running all of this over and over in my mind, driving myself crazy wondering what I was going to do. I got up and turned the TV on for a distraction. A few minutes passed when I realized it was the “Passion of the Christ.” Jesus was being beaten and at that very moment it was like a flood of hope came upon me. All of a sudden I remembered Vacation Bible School as a little girl I went with the neighbor kids. I remembered what they said about Jesus; John 3:16 “for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whosoever believeth in him shall never parish but have eternal life.” It was in that moment I knew Jesus was my way out. I quickly ran to the bathroom lifted my hands and asked God if he could see me down here in the deep dark depths of darkness I wanted out of. I didn’t want to live that way anymore. From that point on I started seeking Jesus, listening to Christian music only. I spent my time praising and worshipping in prayer (constantly) every chance I had. The more I did it, the more I wanted to do it. It took some time; so don’t give up. (Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen) it will come to pass in your life. Today I am a graduate of the Freedom Dream Center and currently on staff so I have the privilege of ministering to other girls just like me. God has empowered me and given me the ability to leave the past behind me. He continues to open doors no man can shut in my life making a way and I depend on him for everything. He is my knight in shining armor. I’m full of His Spirit and the Word. I’ve never felt more love and peace in all my life. I’ve never been more alive, he has placed people in my life that truly care about me and are here to help me every step of the way. I have an intimate relationship with the King of kings and the Lord of lords. He is more than enough, he’s more than just the Lord, he’s my glorious friend, and he wants to be yours too. (Romans 8:31 – if God is for us, who can be against us, what can man do to us). I wish I had more space but it sure is nice to meet you, hope to see you in Heaven.